When things go wrong, my emotional reflex has always been to fix it. Doing something about it was pouring a drink and making a drastic decision to escape the yucky feelings. I hated sitting in the unknown. My anxiety was through the roof. Drinking gave me the illusion that I was doing something about it, but I was only making things worse. Living that way was like gambling on horse races to survive, and I lost the race every day.

Sitting in discomfort without trying to outrun isn’t so scary anymore. I still want to fix and control things, but now I pause. I talk to my people. I let the moment breathe. That stillness becomes more comfortable than the drastic measures I used to take. Not everything needs to be solved today. I’m learning to trust the process and let life move in its speed instead of mine.

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