So, I had a brief manic phase and depressively crashed after what felt like a mixed episode, and I'm at a point of refusing to believe that the spur of my writing career is based off the manic impulse to create something. I'm coming to understand how I feel in this podcast episode, when it comes to the aftermath of yet another bipolar psychosis episode, and to be honest, I feel quite broken and melancholy. I am hoping to reach a point of acceptance and continuing where I left off, as frustrating and devastating this mental disorder is.

Dreamwalking is basically when someone is conscious and awake, yet is in a state between awake and asleep in which dreams can stream through somewhere in the spiritual matrix, and projected by the mind in vibrance and varying intensities. I was able to notice I could dream walk at around nineteen/twenty. Dreamwalking can sometimes be receiving dreams in a non-linear manner, so I hope folks know I am doing my best to explain it from the physical world!

I wrote something sentimental, something of a goodbye letter and a hello in spirit. If you're a directioner I hope this finds you, wherever you may be in the grieving process. This is for One Direction, their family, their friends, and the directioners who knew the heart and soul of Liam Payne so beautifully.

I'm definitely in dysphoric mania, and I open up about what it's like when it comes to the ins and outs of being in a mixed bipolar state, it's a lot of what I'd like to call brain splat which is this garble of blackout when the psychosis (psychotic features/symptoms) aspect to bipolar disorder intensifies. It's quite the mental health battle, and it's quite literally the most challenging thing about bipolar disorder yet I think. I also talk some more about my books that are soon to be published, which is Crescent and She's Just Not Into Him, and share some details about these worlds.

In this episode, as October is Domestic Abuse Awareness Month, I uncover my writing journey as a 21-year-old poet navigating heartbreak and life as I reclaim my narrative as a survivor of domestic abuse through my teen years, trickling into my twenty-somethings, starting with opening up as a victim of domestic abuse particularly. This is poetic justice for the young girl in me who deserved to walk away and was silenced, and this is poetry to free my heart and mind relentlessly, recklessly, and beautifully. If I can't burn it, then why write it? I can't be a dancing storm without my thunder and my lightning.

Mia's treatment journey began just early this year, as she finally set her skepticism aside and sought treatment for her bipolar psychosis. Generally defined, bipolar psychosis is: a symptom of bipolar disorder that occurs when someone experiences a loss of contact with reality and is unable to distinguish between what is real and what is imagined. She delves into talking about living with bipolar psychosis, and how her healing journey has panned out.

episode two is heavy as Mia opens up about where life truly was growing up as a writer with undiagnosed bipolar disorder and psychosis. she admits that life no longer felt the same as it once was so bittersweetly and how Mia was left with no choice but to retell her narrative in the best way after periods of severe dissociation. with surviving bipolar psychosis, appeared the opportunity to take back the narrative she lost before her treatment journey, and she does so with courage and coffee anxiety.

Kicking off season 3 of For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic, Mia deep dives into her journey writing horror in this spooky-wise first episode. She talks about the first time she wrote horror, and felt the inseparable inspiration to do so. She also talks about the countless horror spinoffs she wrote over the years and through the foundational time of her writing path; writing in the fan-fiction genre on Wattpad. She also shares wisdom with other writers who might want to start writing horror too!