Even when I don’t know what I’m doing; I’m learning that showing up still matters.

This week, I had no real wins to boast about in my candle business, I’ve been second-guessing myself, and I got hit with a surprise sore throat and cold that delayed this episode. But I’m here. Because I promised myself I would be.

From wick testing setbacks to fighting off old habits, and even trying to rebuild my relationship with food and movement, I’m realizing this isn’t about doing it perfectly. It’s about not giving up.

In this episode, I share what’s been working (and what hasn’t), how I’m trying to create sustainable routines, and why healing requires honesty;even when it’s uncomfortable.

"No one’s going to care if I fail or if I win not really. So I’ve got to care. I’ve got to show up for me."

Let this be a reminder that wherever you’re starting from, it’s enough as long as you keep going.

Listen in, and then hit me up on IG: @natetakescontrol or @pushingflames let’s talk about your journey too.

This week, I didn’t hit the gym like I planned — but I did show up for myself in other ways: more walking, less snoozing, better meal prep, and being honest about my setbacks. I’m learning that healing doesn’t always look like progress on paper. Sometimes, it’s just not giving up when it gets hard. In this episode, I talk about the power of specific goals, confronting the voices in my head, and learning to fight for the version of me I know I deserve to become.

Progress isn’t perfection — it’s redirection.

This episode is called The Beginning, A Journey to Me, because I want to talk about something deeper — something that’s shaped a lot of my decisions, my behaviors, and how I see myself: trauma.

Needless to say video did not make it in. Next one.