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35. Yes, I've Done Psychedelics, Part 2: From Psychonaut to Researcher
- 2025/04/07
- 再生時間： 1 時間 15 分
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On episode 35 of A Chat with Uma, I provide the long‑overdue follow‑up to my 2023 episode “Yes, I’ve Done Psychedelics: From Psychonaut to Researcher!” Two years (and many trips) later, I walk you through how psychedelics have woven themselves into my recovery from OCD, PTSD, and treatment‑resistant depression--and how my relationship to them has evolved. I’m candid about the depression pattern I now recognize: months of slow improvement, a frightening slide into suicidal exhaustion, and finally the “as‑needed biological intervention” of a macro‑dose psilocybin session.I share why I now treat psilocybin as an “as‑needed biological intervention,” how my move to Madison and recovery gains changed the cadence of those sessions, and how I’m learning to identify red‑flag symptoms earlier so I don’t wait until rock‑bottom. Throughout the episode I’m brutally honest about the hellish parts: intrusive‑thought torture, eye‑burning exhaustion, and the constant urge to postpone each dose because I hate the experience even while I depend on the after‑effects. I describe how each trip has dovetailed with psychotherapy treatment for OCD, PTSD, and depression, and what last week’s brutally intense—but surprisingly fast‑acting—trip has already done for my mental state. If you want a raw, first‑person account of using psychedelics to carve out months of functional life—and why I still need intensive mental health treatment, behavioral change, and a healthy life to continue through recovery—here it is in its fullest form. Listen to these contextual episodes first:My Full Story: 0 to 26My Mental Health Journey: Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5Yes, I've Done Psychedelics: From Psychonaut to ResearcherThe Ketamine Diaries: Part 1, Part 2Topics Discussed (+ Timestamps):(00:00:00) Recapping Part 1 from two years ago, where I left off with ketamine treatments, and how today’s episode picks up from where we left off(00:02:40) Why I share these vulnerable stories, disclaimers on anecdotal use, and how personal experiences shape broader conversations about psychedelics(00:09:00) The ‘As‑Needed’ Psilocybin Plan: How I decided to approach psilocybin on a loosely scheduled basis, what “biological intervention” means to me... and why I still push it off(00:18:00) From Ketamine Insights to Psilocybin Sessions: Unpacking what daily ketamine “torture” taught me about intrusive thoughts, the mind‑body split, and rediscovering color in life(00:23:00) Facing Relapse & ‘Rock Bottom’ Warnings: Tracking my early warning signs of depression, the classic OCD loops, and learning to heed those signals before everything shuts down(00:34:00) Exploring how moving to Madison, a supportive environment, and evidence-based therapy widened the gap between needing trips, sometimes up to eight months; Recap of my trips since 2023(00:56:00) The Most Recent Trip (March 2025): A raw look at my week‑old session: the usual “hell” meets an unexpected flash of self‑compassion, plus the quicker‑than‑normal bounce‑back effect(01:07:00) The unique relief I'm already experiencing from this trip, small windows of joy, and final reflections on integrating future psychedelics with therapy and recoveryTry CURED Nutrition's CBN Night Oil, Serenity Gummies, & all of their other fantastic products--Use code 'UMA' for 15% off of all products!Connect with me!My website: umarchatterjee.comInstagram: @UmaRChatterjeeTwitter: @UmaRChatterjeeTikTok: @UmaRChatterjeeEmail: hello@umarchatterjee.comSupport my work:https://ko-fi.com/umarchatterjeeHave a guest you want on the show? Fill out the Guest Suggestion Form!