🎧 WHO THIS EPISODE IS FOR:
If you’re a mom who’s been up all night worrying.
If you’ve lost someone and don’t know how you’re still breathing.
If you’re in recovery or barely hanging on to it.
If you think one more relapse won’t kill you—listen up. This is for you.

We go deep on this one. Becky Evans—our sister, our friend—joins the pod to tell the story of her son Jordan. 18 months sober. Doing the damn thing. Then one relapse. One dose. Gone.

This isn’t some sad PSA. This is a real mom telling the truth about grief, addiction, and the fight to keep her son’s legacy alive. We talk recovery, relapse, family, tavern war stories, and how Jordan’s Jumpstart is giving other addicts a shot he should’ve had.

• 00:00 – Cold open & sponsor shoutouts (Bertarelli Cutlery)
• 02:00 – Becky joins: “big sister who tells you to knock your shit off and still loves you”
• 04:59 – Why the family program at IRC matters
• 06:19 – Drunk tavern tales and how Becky’s mom once fired Chris
• 14:22 – Jordan growing up
• 20:51 – Jordan asks for help
• 23:08 – Alcohol changes everything
• 26:21 – The call to Chris
• 30:32 – COVID delays and CPAP hell
• 34:41 – Oxford House saves the day
• 36:41 – April 1st move out
• 42:49 – August 7th: The call that changed everything
• 48:03 – The full breakdown
• 55:16 – Jordan’s Jumpstart is born
• 58:56 – Becky speaks to families
• 1:04:45 – Relapse shouldn’t mean death
• 1:09:13 – Power of grief groups and community
• 1:14:01 – How Becky changes lives at IRC
• 1:16:50 – Jordan’s light keeps shining

• Jordan’s Jumpstart: https://jordansjumpstarttorecovery.godaddysites.com
• Illinois Recovery Center: https://illinoisrecoverycenter.com
• Bertarelli Cutlery: https://bertarellico.com

💬 REAL SHIT:
Jordan didn’t die because he was weak. He died because fentanyl doesn’t give a damn.
This episode is a gut punch—but also a battle cry.
If you’ve got someone out there using, share this with them.
If you’re using, share it with yourself.
And if you’re listening with tears in your eyes—yeah, us too.

🎧 PONDOFF’S ANONYMOUS – EPISODE 11

Guest: Alex Kaiser | Host of No Lions Here Podcast
🎧 https://www.nolionshere.com/

WHO’S THIS EPISODE FOR?

• The morbidly curious
• Anyone whose secrets are getting heavy
• Partners of sex addicts who want answers
• Folks untangling faith, shame, and identity
• People craving unfiltered recovery talk

EPISODE HIGHLIGHTS:

Chris, Jeff, and Jakob dive in with Alex Kaiser, a man who’s walked through hell and come back with a mic. From childhood trauma to sex addiction, locker room benders to emotional sobriety—this one hits hard.

• 🎧 Alex’s podcast: No Lions Here – https://www.nolionshere.com/
• 💔 Trauma, shame, and the roots of sexual addiction
• 🧠 The Feeling Wheel—emotional sobriety 101
• 🏒 Hockey, blow, and bottoming out in a garage with a glory hole
• 🚫 What sexual sobriety actually means
• 🔥 Why he’s speaking up now—and who it’s for

TIMESTAMPS:

• [00:00] – Bertarelli Cutlery shoutout
• [01:36] – Finger-fucking the mic setup
• [04:00] – Meet Alex: recovering sex addict
• [06:00] – Love addiction & early shame
• [10:11] – Sobriety defined: no porn, no apps, no hookups
• [20:11] – Childhood abuse, church trauma
• [28:15] – Feeling Wheel and emotional sobriety
• [34:55] – Naming emotions, dealing with disappointment
• [37:24] – Arousal templates, secrets, and shame
• [48:27] – Benders, broken trust, and the turning point
• [57:03] – Begin Again Institute: where he got help
• [1:18:00] – Disclosing to a new partner
• [2:00:00] – If you’re struggling, email Alex: nolionshere@gmail.com

LISTEN TO ALEX’S PODCAST:

🦁 No Lions Here – Raw stories of recovery and real connection
🎧 https://www.nolionshere.com/

FINAL TAKE:

Two hours of raw truth, no filter. Alex proves that healing’s possible—even after the kind of shit no one wants to admit out loud.

RESOURCES & LINKS:

• 🎡 Feeling Wheel: https://feelingswheel.com/
• 📧 Email Alex: nolionshere@gmail.com
• 🏥 Begin Again Institute: https://beginagaininstitute.com/
• 🎙️ No Lions Here Podcast: https://www.nolionshere.com/

💥 SPONSORS:

• 🔪 Bertarelli Cutlery – https://bertarellico.com
• 🏥 Illinois Recovery Center – https://illinoisrecoverycenter.com

Back by popular demand (and because we promised), we’re throwing it back to an episode that still slaps five years later. Megan Gehrs sat down with Chris and poured out a jaw-dropping story of addiction, destruction, and one hell of a comeback. From sneaking booze in Catholic school basements to being wheelchair-bound with alcoholic neuropathy, Megan takes us on a brutal, hilarious, and brutally honest ride.

But don’t get it twisted—this isn’t a sob story. It’s a story of survival, faith, and the kind of redemption arc that makes Hollywood scripts look soft.

In this one, we cover:

• 🍻 How Belleville turned weekend benders into lifestyle choices
• 🚫 Why DUIs and losing her license didn’t slow her down—but losing the feeling in her legs did
• 🛏️ Drinking vodka out of water bottles in a hospital bed (yeah… it gets there)
• 🔥 Hitting her spiritual bottom and finally getting her life back
• 🙌 Finding purpose in service and saving lives through lived experience
• 💪 What real recovery looks like—and why Megan’s still out here doing the damn thing

Megan didn’t just get sober. She got loud. And now she’s helping others do the same, one raw truth at a time.

This episode is loaded with laughter, tears, and more Belle-Vegas debauchery than we care to admit. If you missed it the first time (shame on you), don’t miss it now.

📅 Originally recorded FIVE YEARS AGO. And it still bangs.

📺 YouTube version (with the most views in show history): Watch here

Let us pray.